You know what, these past couple days I have been giving my life a lot of thought. My conclusion is that my life is no where at all close to where I thought it would be right now. I like having things planned out, it doesn’t matter what it is that’s just what I do.
Since before high school graduation I knew exactly what I was going to do with the rest of my life and I knew exactly where I would be in my life right now. After graduation I would go to Snead State Community College where I would spend my first two years of college majoring in music education and then I would transfer to either Jacksonville or Auburn where I would finish up my college education. I would then go back to my high school and become band director.
My life so far, I spent three years at Snead. I spent one year studying music education before deciding that wasn’t what I was meant to do. I changed my major to journalism and after two years graduated with my associate’s degree.
Now what? What’s next? The answer is I have no idea. I have no idea what I am doing with my life or what I want to do. My life has never been more chaotic, uncertain or without plans. I don’t know what to do.
I used to have a real good friend that I would go to with every little hiccup or problem in my life. I went to them so they could tell me what to do to fix everything and every time I got the same answer, “Jodie stop stressing and just go with the flow”.
I guess I am finally learning to go with the flow and for now I will do only things that make me happy. For now I will do only things I enjoy and one day hopefully I will find the one thing I am meant to do for the rest of my life. I do know one thing for sure though, the people who say that you can’t do what you love, you have to do what makes you the most money are wrong. I would much rather be doing something I love and enjoy, even if I don’t make a lot of money over doing something that makes me miserable, but pays well any day.
After all God’s plan for my life is far greater than mine could have ever been. I just have to be patient and have faith that one day God will lead me in the direction I need to go. Until then I will continue to take pictures, write, travel the world and be happy.